Frustration~!

Salam...

Mom,
please forgive me for all my mistakes...
i inaccidently break your heart without your knowledge...
i try not to...
but because of my desperation, i have to...
please forgive me mom..
for not being a good child as you always wish to...
environment influences me a lot....
sorry mom...
i maybe no longer a best student...
not yet a bad student....
i just don't know myself...
lack of confidence...
like my friends always condemn me for that...
i've the will but i failed to raise up my confident level...
i'm too weak....

Mom,
sorry if i really make u down....
i don't mean to do that...
believe me,,
i really don't wanna be like this...
i struggle so hard to fight the laziness...
i try to be myself whatever it takes...
n made u proud of me...
raising up my confident level so that all will be mine...
mom,
you inspire me a lot n you're my inspiration...
that's why i'm still here....
my spirit will never fade as long as you keep supporting me...
thanks for that mom...

Mom,
don't put a high expectation on me...
cause i know that i'm no longer like before...
sorry for everything....
i don't mean to hurt u...

p/s: ni ditulis setelah ina frust xjwb test physics td wpun da study..tade confident nk jwb..next week insyaAllah jwb...bkn ina wat benda2 yg pelik...tp bg ina... ina telah menghancurkan hati my mum sebab xmencuba test tu n telah menambahkan lg senarai test yg perlu dijwb..haish... jgn pikir pelik lak...ina bkn bt something yg terlalu bad..hehehe.....